life sux

2011-05-30T23:07:00.004+08:00

i actually felt like i am being back to how i used to be.

that fragile, weakling that had eventually changed

and become to another person that have a strong wall

that prevent myself from being hurt.

well, a big round of applause to those people from the first three

pictures you guys made me smile after such a long

time. i finally smiled without faking one after such a long time.

i felt happy for the first time in such a long run.

i felt relieve. HAPPY like finally. after all the recent brawling,

the recent cryings, the recent memories that just come back after

seeing something that remind me of the past,to hurt me, the

recent sarcasms, the recent action that SOME PEOPLE did

and did not apologise after hurting me physically.[not that it hurt]

it's my first time getting approval my parent's allowed me

to be out with my friends at night. [thanks a lot!!]

i love all my friends though i might accidently insult them

without knowing.i didn't mean it. but if you think it is, so

be it. no point explaining if you already think and confirmed with

yourself that i did it on purpose.

ronnie, i love you lots and you gotta know, i might not be fully

committed but i will come back to you no matter what. i just

want to enjoy life while i still can. i want to become back to that

girl that once run on the field freely. that girl that once thought

that she rule her own world and only has to be thoughtful about

my own feelings. the recent friendship shit is making me

behave that pessimistic. i don't want to be like that. i just

need time. and trust me my grades are temporary i will promise

to score higher then this. i promise(:

lastly i want to thank those that actually made me smile

not that you guys put in any effort. it's just that i found myself

back. it was really really nice of you all(:

SO REALLY BIG THANKS TO:

LITING

WEICONG

NIGEL

SENGKOK

QIMING

JINGKANG

WEIJIAN

BENNY

JIANHUI

SEANLIEW

RAIHAN

GABRIEL

ZIHAO

WENLONG

THANKS A LOT!!!!!

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST(:

2011-02-28T20:51:00.003+08:00

what happened yesterday was gone

what is going to happen we will never know

what just happened is what i regretted

well i don't feel like posting anything today. so shall

share a little story and fly away.

i sat at the bus stop, jerking my head back as long as

there is a movement. as soon as my hopes are lifted,

it sank. it was not your feature. the promise that you

make were always empty. willing at first and later

going back on your words for most of the times we met.

i looked at my phone. your face. smiling so happily like

you are the happiest guy on earth. however the face i

seen just now, it was the total opposite. your frown

facing the ground. putting effort to smile only when

i called your name. you sat there unwilling to move,

not wanting to get up from the chair. i took the keys

and opened the door went back and put it in your hands.

the last sight of you, still looking down. i close the door.

tears at the brim of my eye, not wanting to break down

the second time at his house. i felt disappointed, you

expected me to share all my problems with you. on

the other hand you didn't want to do the same. you

seemed difficult at times. i strode to the gate. taking

a step out, still hoping you did come out of your room.

the room door remain closed, untouched. i closed the

main door turned and walked away.

the bus came i hastily went up.regretting going over.

no. i regretted pouring my feelings out.

*
that's all i think

nights all~

2011-02-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

hold on by the memories, stuck in the past.

not willing to move on.

and so there she 'talking' to him through the phone.

she feels the tears at the brim of her eyes.

He never knows what's wrong unless he saw the

tear coming out. other than that, he would never

know what was going on. she did not want to have

high expectations for him, as she thought it was

unfair. nevertheless she still wishes a little more

warmth from him. as the day goes, she loses hope

and thought,' is it that difficult?' the feeling of

everything being a waste of time overwhelmed

her. it was like an investment on the wrong kind of

things. recalling there he is over the phone doing

something that interest him. pretending that she

never existed unless she started talking. life's

pathetic. no, she's pathetic.

a small story to share but all in all it's just another

story. well today have been a bad day for me. well,

thanks to someone i would like to push my blame

to, instead of blaming myself. things went wrong

so, i have got to dye my hair black again. in life,

when people ask you politely you will definitely

agree and get down to it. however when they

scold you and make you do something there would

be a part inside you wanting to be defiant and just

purposely do things the wrong way. well i think

everyone would have the same way of thinking.

well think i am going to end here. my mood isn't

right today and something is making it worst.

at times i hope i could just leave it all behind but

i am not brave enough to.but i have thought would

you be better off alone? and so you don;t have to listen

to me crap all night long? and you will never be pressurized

by me telling you that you never knew what i wanted.

ain't that better this way? argh. thinking of it bring me to tears

shall stop then. nights.

buh byes~

2011-02-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

wahahahahhahha i am back to update more bullshits!!!!!!!

behold.... CRAPPING TIME:D

today had CCA(: went to east coast park for cycling.

but before that,

THANK YOU LEON AND WEI CONG DA GE!!!!!!!!!

cause they help us escape from chinese remedial(:

AWESOME.

so, my day was tired due to thursday= sport heats

shall elaborate later(:

currently watching lilo and stitch again(: awesome show.

anyway today at east coast park we were cycling however

it rained and stop and rained again so it was quite bad cause

half of the time we were in the shelters. so i lead a game

of concentration and they joined in gladly(:

was actually quite worried as the atmosphere was tense

and everyone's mood was down. but succeeded in the end

nice me(: after cca went home and later got a maths tuition.

so on thursday i've got sports heat. so i will be running for 100,

400 and won 3 for 1500. (:

after that played badminton. i lost to duh== cant believe it==

nvm i wa tired.anyway i am tired.

bye.

beneath the pitch black sky,

to myself i would lie,

together with nature i'd lay,

'i miss you' to myself i'd say.

now we'd rest, awaiting the sun to arise.

yes, now we'd rest, under the moon with life.

poem by my darling(:

nights~

2011-02-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

Sagittarius is the most dangerous horoscope among

the 12.

*
wahahahahahahaha i am in power!!!!!!!!!

ok let me explain(:

sagi usually don't hold grudge against people

they will bear it in their hearts and you can

never tell if they are holding a grudge

against you. and after holding the grudge, they

will make you suffer ten times more then before(:

amazing right? actually quite scary too.

another thing is that they are the most

sociable horoscope among all 12, so you'll

never know what will happen to the grudge

multiply by ten and have a big group of friends.

haha the rest is up to you to decide(:

let imaginations run wild:D

ohoh and horoscope opposite your own means

you guys can go along well. people usually

think the opposite just because it's the opposite==

my day is awesome(: in a sense

until everything is being ruined by some people

and it have been the same person all over again.

ohoh and leon bully me!!!!

haha kidding i played the scissors paper stone game

the one where the opponent can slap your hand if you

lose. so it was so pain that i cried.

maybe it's cause i didn't played for a long time already.

anyway school was fun. after school, i went to

some cheer leading practice that was like shit.

there were only 3 chinese and 15 malays.

and most of all, all of them are communicating in malay.

so it's like we're being stuck up assholes that don't

understand a single thing. wow ain't that great.

things just get better when i am separated from my friends

in the formation. SUCKERS!!!!!!!!

so this year's sports day i am going for 100m, 200m

, 400m and CCA/house relay. though i wanted short-put.

anyway, will be training. cause i want to get at least one

silver medal(: SMILES!!!!!! hopefully i wont be too tired to

complete all(: it's my last year so i just want to do

something challenging. something i can't handle(:

i miss you. if you even care.

so i just hope to spend more time with you.

even if it means watching you go away

and letting tars flow down my face.

cause i never want to lose you ever again.

shall end here!

cya~

buh byes~

2011-01-29T21:48:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt like any of the pictures content?

well, i felt most of them, and what makes it worst is

that it is raining now and i feel so down.

i've got nothing to say anymore. really. you feel prioritized

behind my friends which isn't the case is most likely

because you aren't in school with me anymore. Do

you even know how hard it is to cope? it is like everyday i

wake up, i remembered you graduated, you are not going

to accompany me to school anymore.the time we can spent

together is also being reduced. yesterday, you felt totally

different. the first time you listened to music while sending

me home. the first time you actually did not bother to talk

to me on the journey home. before and after we alighted the

bus, you didn't hold my hand. it really gives me the shivers.

it is like we don't mean anything to each other anymore.

ignore the top. just a moment of fury. today is Saturday!!!!!

BADMINTON!!!!! well in the end it ain't that awesome.

cause i did't have the touch and was losing all the

important points. so i didn't enjoyed it much. i think i am

ending here. ain't feeling really well.

cya~

buh byes~

2011-01-20T21:02:00.004+08:00

poor stitch

there is nothing left to be done if it have to happen

the only right thing to do is to reduce the harm caused.

yupp so this is it. just fake a smile and nobody

will notice what happen. nobody will notice

anything that have gone wrong. just typically

NOTHING.

[unless you are a high maintenance person

then good luck to you.]

today i miss called elvina 11 times and tadaa

she didn't pick up and therefore did not come to school.

p.e is changed into some vice-principal talk

that made me and probably some of my friends

quite demoralized. after that was lessons

and during CME there was this teacher that

spoiled my mood. she kept demanding the class to do

what she is suppose to do. like informing the teacher about

the votes for the proposals. but she made me and some

others copy it or write it down.

full of bullshit. why should i even help her?

oh i remember cause i wasn't listening.

no. it was more like she was talking bullshit(:

that sounds better.

the rest of the day went on fine till there is homework

for a maths written all over the white board.

how nice of Mrs. lee(:

anyway school ended quick today.

shall end here then.

buh byes~

why do you all keep pretending that you care? NO. why the fuck am i going along with it?

2011-01-17T22:37:00.002+08:00

the worst feeling is when someone makes you special,

then suddenly leave you hanging,

and you have to act like you don't care at all.

i mean it does really suck right??

be it your friend or BF/GFs.

you just think they are that important to you

and they just leave you behind and continue

with their own lives.

well all we can do is to get over it and start all over again(:

okay. i need to change my blog skin. cause i am getting

sick of it. so i will do it soon. links, i think i will still

be linking people. unless they change their blog names

or whatever.

today a friend asked me.

"do you really no care if she talk behind your back?"

i was stunned by the question as i have never

thought about it before.

but i answered.

"actually no. as in like if they would want to criticize

you behind your back, it is not like you can stop them

from doing so. so if it makes them happy let them be

afterall they would become the childish ones."

those aren't the exact words but i said something like that.

i feel miserable. sadly it's a fact. i really hope i could be a

better friend as well as GF.

looking back, i have never done much to make my friends happy

i have neglected them and said things that they aren't.

i wasn't being nice.

anyway i don't wish to change much but i got to improve.

studies is being an stuck-up asshole but i am dating you

till the end of O levels(:

shall end here.

byes~

2011-01-10T20:27:00.004+08:00

well, i know my blog is as good as dead

but i dont care. i am still going to post something

once in a long while.

well many things have happened and i think

i didn't bid a proper farewell to 2010.

so here goes.

in 2010 be it the conflicts and times when we go crazy,

all is fun, despite the craziness and headache they have caused.

i had memories i'd like to cherish.

friends, well i found those whom i could trust.

above all i have a crazy friend that is willing to

hear me bawl my eyes out and be totally random

at times.

so i hope this continues in 2011.

oh.. and problems that aren't important,

don't come knocking at my door. i don't

need extra troubles. it'll just make it worst(:

so that's it for 2010.

today, i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

more ever there was someone that add oil to

the fire. so i shan't talk about it. O level results

are released today. mostly were tears of sadness.

well tears of joy are endangered. so my grades, let's

just say it was unexpected and i wish to retake.

so good luck to me.

to that crazy friend of mine, i hope you make the right choice.

i will support you no matter what(:

so that's it for today.

cya soon~

buh byes~

2010-11-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

maybe we're meant to lose the ones we love, but i will fight for you till then.

you dont know do you?That in a crowded place, will always search for you.

She says she is fine, but she is going insane.

She says she feels good, but she is in a lot of pain.

She says it's nothing, but it's really a lot.

She say's she is okay, but she is really not.

Even though you may want to move forward in your life,

you may have one foot on the brakes.

In order to be free, we must learn how to let go.

Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain.

The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.

You may pretend it never happen. But remember, in one point of your life,

that was what you wanted the most. It may not have worked out the way you

wanted. But never forget that it has once made you feel that you were the happiest

person on earth.

okay i should seriously start typing something of my life.

firstly, i don't get it with guys taking parang or chopper going around

chopping or slashing people. as in like you want to kill someone, just kill

yourself saves a lot of manpower to clear up for your mess. as in like you

chop them then they run and their blood just drip on the floor and leave a

huge mess. TROUBLESOME!!!!! and this particular thing made my dad

object me going to downtown for my chalet.

so, GROW UP AND GET A LIFE!!!!!

okay so i have been working for a week now. many stuff have happen.

so i will just say some. i made a lot of friends during work. people

like joey and bobo are now my honey and baby respectively. while i became

their darling. and coincidentally, joey is also a sagi so,

sagi+ sagi = AWESOMELY RANDOM FILLED WITH JOY!!!!!

haha i always looked forward to meet friends especially sagis

awesome. so i have learnt a lot of stuff^^. happy ending. gotta sleep early,

tmr got work^^ heh. blog soon.

cya~

buh byes~

2010-11-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

hello my dear dead blog
long time no feed you with updates.
haha broken english=singlish
haha i have becoming lamer.
anyway shall complete the task that i
have came here for.
*
when you think all your friends have turn you down,
send me a text i will be there for you.
*
apprently some of my friends have problems.
be it friendship, parents problems or relationship
problems i will be there for you.
but bitches, stay clear of my radar. so is money issues.
hmm, let's just name this friend A. it's just a nickname anyway.
anyway, A started to hold grudge against this group of friends
and idk why cause she dont want to explain.
but i think, there must be a certain reason why
are you hating them suddenly=='' you dont just
go around hating people one day and the next you
will be like ''hey my dear friend.'' or something.
unless you are a bitch but i dont think you are one
cause i know what real bitches are like. they will
be all clingy over you for a day and the next they
treat you like you dont even exist at all.
but to the point, A, i think both sides are at fault.
you dont just hate someone for no reason.
even if they dont text you, you can text them.
probably they have nothing to text you that's why
they didnt text you and you mistaken it as they never
care for you. people just live in different lives and
have different thoughts. like you know EL and JY is into
Kpop but i am not. so it is something like that.
so i hope this wont continue for long.
A!!!!!!!!!!!!! think it over okay??
*
okay the next one shall name it P. hmm,i am real sorry i cant
see you off tomorrow but i will try to wait for you at the airport
when you come back kay?? no promises though.
anyway, if you got a grudge with your dad at least
let your mum know? you just leave her hanging
mid-air isnt nice. oh and i dont think you should repeat
sec3 cause it will be a waste of time even if the teachers
pick on you, it will only be the last year with them.
dont repeat just because your best friend cant go
to the next year with you doesnt mean anything.
sometimes friends dont mean anything. your future
is more important and you will definately have more
and better friends in the future.
*
okay now is my turn. huh. jaded.
i finally found a job today like finally.
but i will be ending in a months time.
sad but gotta live with it. okay i haven
seen duh in 2 weeks plus. well not seeing him
till 19 nov due to unseen forces. haha.
anyway like is still as boring so get over it.
*
gonna end here
cya~
buh byes~

2010-10-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

girl: what if i have done something close to betrayal

guy: i will forgive you

girl: why would you?

guy: cause i love you.

girl: now you are making me guilty.

ignore the top. it is just some stuff i did out of stupidity.

anyway he got his revenge. happy him. should be studying

while smiling now. but from the start he don't deserve that

kind of treatment. i kind of hurt his feelings and yes i am

guilty. but don't try to let imaginations run wild and spread

rumors cause i will really kill you.

currently listening to goodbye by miley cyrus. singing along

too^^. nice song, so anyway went to play badminton with

puteri, wei cong, pearlyn, teng wee.

all good players. AWESOME. so all was well. duh came

around 3 plus saw him and was soo happy. after not seeing him

for 2 weeks i really wanted to see him. anyway eugene came later

and slack around. he didn't want to perspire. weird guy.

played till 5pm. some unhappy stuff happen but as long as

he feels sorry will do i don't expect much.

so hang around till we bid farewell. eugene, puteri, duh

and i went to lot1 for dinners. surprisingly i still ate4 another bowl

of rice at home.AWESOME. well duh send me home. THE END.

while, at lot1, i got a little too possessive. cause eugene wanted

duh to accompany him but i didn't allow him too. heh. think i

got a little too over this time.

gotta end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-10-08T19:01:00.004+08:00

huh.. i was seriously having fun cause

i am spam calling someone that send

me some weird sms.

i've got a sms for you,

the minute i saw that text, the moment you cut off

and switch off your phone it was my turn to return

you a favor. oh and don't worry,

it will be an unpleasant one...

i promise...

my day today was awesome!!!!!

left with poa and it will be the end for my

n lvl exams^^

was out the whole day teaching liting

jingyi and elvina poa. while if all of

them pass i will cry in joy!!!!!!!!!!

i promise^^

nigel came and helped later on.

after that we loiter around and
was tired and went home soon after.

that's when i recieve the weird sms.

okay my first reaction was WTF??

then okay i called and he cut off.

so i soon posted on facebook and later

started spam calling. was having lots of fun^^

anyway still searching who but i

got a rough idea who is he.

but you'd better own up soon cause i cant

promise you that i will forget it and not pursue

it..

***

heh. plastic.?!. that's the best story i every heard .

you copied it from somewhere again?

heh. they are right habits cant die. nobody said you

acted and no one said we act. you were just the director

all along. directing the whole show. while you only

know how to push the blame. dont make it sound so

angelic and push it to the rest. you did something wrong and

triggered the whole process. dont worry. you'll find

better friends. if only they trusted and liked you. oh and dont

pretend you know them cause you'll only hurt yourself more.

liking a post you dont even know it's directed at you.

heh. one word shallow.

filtered by lies and soon truth will become a lie too.

***

going off~

cya. buh byes~

2010-09-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

Streams of water flowed down my face. I tasted and found salt in the rain. Just realizing the tears had escape, i wiped them away without letting him know.

No, i don't have to hide it anymore. He isn't there since that day. The day he turned around and moved into that room

*
The sun shined brightly, creating an effect whereby the grass shines. Due to the overnight rain droplets. It is today, finally, the day has arrived upon our hardships of going through everything. I picked up my phone, press speed dial no.1. He picked up the phone almost instantly.

"Happy 2 years anniversary!"Both of us shouted through the phone together at the same time.

As usual we ended up laughing.

"I will be picking you up in 20 minutes."Sky said.

"Sure i will see you soon then!"With that the call ended.

i put on my usual long black pants and a grey and white tank top. Drew my eyeliner and went out to the living room, waiting for the knock on the door.

A few minutes later, Sky knocked on the door, i opened and found him smiling like a small boy, who just found something he like for a very long time. Pulling away from my thoughts, i opened the gate, stepped out and went into his arms. I locked the door and went off to the nearby shopping center for lunch. After lunch we went to shop around for winter clothings as winter was coming in another 1week time. During the evening we went to the park to enjoy the sunset.

"Lya you know something?"Sky questioned

"Yes? what is it?"

"You have to know i am leaving soon."

I laughed , thinking he was playing a prank on me.

"Going home soon?" I teased.

"No. i am serious. The operation has only a chance of 20% that i would survive."

I stared at him, eyes wide open, unable to digest whatever he just said. His face mirroring mine, our eyes locked for 2 seconds and Sky turned away.

"What surgery?"I swallowed back my tears and questioned

"Brain tumor. It has been with me for more than a year."

"When is the surgery?"

"In two days. Amazing isn't it? Time suddenly seem so precious."

I cut him off halfway."Think on the bright side, there is still 20% of staying alive"

"No. the percentage is too low, it will never succeed."

"Let's just leave it there. Let's stop arguing about it okay?"

"Sure"

Throughout the whole night , silence filled the sir around us. Trying to remember all the happy memories that surround us. Tears leaked out of our eyes. Despite knowing the likely results of the surgery, we wanted to avoid it. Thinking of how unfair fate is to make such a nice guy die. Why is life so unfair?

"Let's go. t's time for you to go home."Sky broke the awe silence between us.

"Let's go."

Two days later at the hospital, that was the last time i seen him moving. He was surprised when he spotted me beside his family.

"I hope i could walk out of that room."

"i will be waiting."

"I will miss you. I would think of you every second in there."

"I will too. Come back to me soon."

He brush his lips against mine and that was the last touch i got for him. The next moment was seeing his lifeless body lying on the bed. Unknowingly, tears escape from the side of my eye lids. I bid farewell to his family members and left. Convincing myself that that is not Sky, Sky might be still hanging around at the void deck waiting for me.

The tears stinging my eyes brought me back to reality. I stood in front of his grave.

"Happy 3year anniversary."

With that i knelt down and broke down in front of him during the winter season. Hoping i could join him soon. Very soon.

2010-09-22T21:28:00.001+08:00

i have always wanted my freedom.

i don't really feel like giving a damn

anymore. i know it's exam period but

i don't really care. i just want to have

my own private life and post all i want.

so i can see that my blog is dead for the

past few months. i was really disappointed

i feel like losing control and lock myself in

a place only i know of. i was suppose to

join shenghong, nigel, wei yang, zihao, jingyi,

gladys and liting for mid-autumn festival tonight

but my parents just would'nt allow me.

WHAT KIND OF CRAP IS THIS??????

when i want to socialise you don;t allow me to.

when i want to go out you also forbid me to.

i have already kept all my sundays committed to

this family what else do you want me to

sacrifice??

nigel suggested to meet up to celebrate, i agreed

and help to organise and plan whe and where.

then now i cannot attend.

what kind of shit is this?

you dont allow me to do anything. reject in

everything i do just because i am too young you say.

BUT FOR GOD'S SAKE THIS IS THE 21st CENTURY!

i am mature enough to take care of myself already!

what did i ever do to deserve no freedom?

what an ass.

***

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*****

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***

school was okay. i laugh all the way

as i didnt get some fucked up attitude today.

went to school with him as usual.

we didnt even speak a word to each other.

it's like as if we were strangers. i don't feel

like putting anymore effort in this.

you want to study? go ahead, go back to your class

don't come to mine and take up other people's space.

jingyi didnt attend school today. so gladys came over

chatted till bell rang and we went down together.

all seems to go hay-wire. i cant get things right.

probably cause i did'nt get enough food. my stomach

was growling during the last few periods of school

when we had our mock exams. the exam was

horrendous i think i and failing it. cant seem to care

after all. i feel like shutting down my whole system.

i really need to talk to someone. so i can feel better

hopefully i can find something useful out of everything.

reached home and mum was'nt in so i ate and use

the computer. then liting told me about the celebration

so i texted nigel and contact jingyi and gladys to

organise for the whole thing. later shenghong asked

if i could go over to senja. but i asked him to go over

to teck whye where i am suppose to be, too bad

i aia'nt there to share my laughter. sad case.

so now currently stuck at home. i doubt i will be

celebrating this year.

OH. and thanks dear parents you finally ruined

my mid-autumn festival.

last but not least happy birthday jon~

roses are red,

violets are blue.

stop controling me,

before i kill you.

going off~

cya~

buh byes~

2010-06-25T19:03:00.005+08:00

yeah i know i am making a nuisance of myself.

i know okay? i feel like disappearing from this moment

onwards as a human i have destroyed respect between

another. as me? i think i am currently the most fucked

up person. i just gotta learn how to control myself for

crying out loud.

i lost count of my dates so i shall just randomly post

monday

had yog group A1 outing at wild wild wet was super fun.

there were 12 light bulbs during lunch after wild wild

wet. friends that were there were yihan, glacier, delvin,

joel, sharon, darryl and peithong. had fun just that there

were some awful moments.[cant be bothered]

lunch was at Popeye's. thanks to cai ping and ritchie.

skipped tuition and slacked in the arcade. wait for duh to

join us and went home. shall not continue..

thursday

went to malaysia with aunt adeline, able, mom and glacier

slack around and had yog training afterwards. pretty much

fun but disappointed at some things that i should not say.

was tired cant remember much of that day.

friday

today went to the library to study. saw gorden and shao zun.

as well as jasper papa, gabriel and benny da ge.

blah blah blah

and went home while glacier went to tuition.

shall not continue any further.

cya~

buh byes~

to duh

just pretend nothing had happened and go on with life.

thanks and sorry again

2010-06-13T21:46:00.003+08:00

i seriously got nothing in mind to post

so i am just going to write randomly==''

12.06.2010

SATURDAY!!!!!!

is a busy day for me==''

thanks to the crams i am having

from badminton training on

friday.. i lost in a lot of matches badly

and got nagged by puteri uncountable

times==''

sorry...

after that got yog training at mandai hill

camp... had fun and started talking to

delvin's brother... nothing much but was

seriously fun^^ ohh anddelvin seriously

got to stop calling me avatar==''

went to grandmom's house and slack

around and slept

so you can see my life is pretty boring

nvm shall sign off now==''

cya~

buh byes~

2010-06-04T12:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday was anniversary!

he bought something for me

and i kinda force it out of duh nvm

anyway thanks!!!!!

***

you seriously think that i care??

like seriously la

i overslept.. ya my fault

i wanted to rush over but with that

kind of reply, it just spoils everything

i dont even feel like going anymore

even if i go there it would be pointless

anyway isnt it. i even skipped badminton

training for this gathering! and i get this

kind of treatment? good job man. i totally

deserve this kind of shit. so i am not going

anywhere today unless i finally feel like

it..

*
**
*

today and yesterday was like shit. i slept

while arguing about one thing and woke

up feeling pissed with two things...

impressive isnt it? my life is so interesting

that one day i think its gonna blow.

wait screw that. now i got 4 things

to think about

a maths tuition homework = undone

gathering = overslept

arguing = i dont care anymore. you

showing that big fucking face its like you

think you are some almighty somebody

which i think is highly impossible.

phone bill = over and my mum is recording

it down and claiming it from me after

i got money to pay back to her.

i also got nothing to say and know i am the

only one to blame. but just let me be stubborn for

once and blame it on others..

dont even know why i am posting maybe just

came here to vent my anger and it work!!!

*claps* *laughs*

going bonkers soon shall end here

gotta finish my a maths homeworkssssssssssssss==''

cya~

buh byes~

2010-05-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

solve it

will you be my girl?

urban challenge was a few days ago

fun but feeling unwell but at

least i completed the race^^
writing in about today and yesterday^^

26.05.2010

el came to school today

quite surprised and she broke her

record!!!! not coming school for

one week two days!!!! darn cool

urban challenge was cool and i got

21-4^^..keep scaming people i got

21^^..

after that went to west mall for

lunch which was udders icecream

and KFC!!!!! altogether was

NNNNNNIIIIIIICCCCCCCEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

went home after that and slept...

super tired. woke up had dinner

chatted with duh and slept again

my life suddenly is similiar to a pig's

anyway that was the end of my day^^

***

27.05.2010

day of results!!!!!!

was nervous and did not expect

anything good to happen while,

it was the opposite instead but when

i reach home, it came true somehow==''

it came out that i got the 10th ranking

in class satisfied ^^ while hopefully

friends around me can get their wished

results..

so went to eat with jingyi and liting since

chua left early to attend her brother's

graduation ceremony..

ate cup noodles^^ brought back all the childhood

memories^^ happy little girl^^..

drank bubble tea^^

sent jingyi home and went back to school

with liting as she dont feel like going home.

put elvina's homework in mrs.lee cupboard

left her a message and went home^^

reached and show mum the results.

she was surprised and said

"i know why you got such good results!''

"why?"i asked

"cause people in your class didnt study well thats why!"

"so you are trying to say i didnt score well?"

"yes."

the conversation is in chinese.

cool right? to have such an interesting mum?

the other time it was raining and i got caught

in the rain when i reach home my mum

open the door and ask if i was wed i replied a little

she said not wet enough get wetter and come home

later she walk back inside and i used my

own keys to open the door..

anyway i facebook-ed for the whole afternoon

until around 5plus went for yog training

fun but they keep changing the formations

its alright^^ as long as i can remember^^

met duh and he came to toa payoh!!!!!

sent me home SOOO HAPPY!!!!!

chatted with duh as usual and slept.

***

28.05.2010

went out with family and ate sashimi!!!!!!!

at a japanese resturant^^ simles^^

told duh about it and he got jealous==''

AWWW.... idc[i dont care!!]bleh!!!!

went home for a maths tuition soo cool!!!!!

anyway got homwork for it...so gotta complete!

chatted with duh till around 3 going 4am

and slept

END OF DAY[v.tired]

***

29.05.2010

Saturday!!!!!!! favorite day of every week!!!!!

had badminton and yog=tiring and tons of fun!!!!!

didnt contact duh at all..sadded and i just cut off

his call=='' actually i think its the connection nvm..

he called and the first word is hello next is go study==''

i am being cruel=='' evil me..

woke up, ate and was off for badminton..

went there and didnt played well today..

idk why==''

it is brandon's birthday!!!!!!

anyway went to eat with puteri and brandon

at lot1 later played at the playground at the

top floor super fun..and giddy heh

left and met glacier at yew tee and went for

yog..

delvin came today and i laughed a lot^^

but yihan was worst==''

three of us laughed due to something

delvin said later we stop and yihan continued

and when he calm down, i said

yihan you are going to start laughing if you

stare at delvin for another 5seconds and

it didnt even take 5seconds for him to start

laughing==''

went home and have been slacking

till now gotta crash soon..

***

these few days a lot of thing have

been happening and i think i dont

have the rights to intefere so i could only

stand at a side and observe but wat i have

seen is close to chaos. i have been literally

yelled at and partially ignored.. but all i

wanted was to let you know i am concerned

all in all, i dont ever think any of you would

know. i really hope it is solve to cover all

unhappiness with a sheet and let bygones

be bygones, that is the best i can wished for.

for now i could only camp and wait for news.

from both sides, he IS wrong but from his

side probably he is embarrassed and wanted

to cover everything by just pushing a blame.

therefore nothing i could assume i just

wish i can sleep and wake up pretending

nothing happened..

anyway wat i hope now is for jasper and jingyi

to be okay again^^.. so cheerups...

going to crash soon..

cya~

buh byes~

2010-05-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

yupp. i finally got the sudden urge to post!!!!!

its like ages since i come in here and crap==''

blog=officially dead==''

okay so exams are finally over!!!!!

but too bad i am not satisfied with the results==''

hiya wat can i do?? threaten the teachers??

LOL!!!!!!

within this few weeks a lot of

things happened but like i always do,

we gotta let bygones be bygones

and move on so here is wat happened today.

urban challenge coming in two days time!!!!

super excited!!!! i joined and pulled chloe with me^^

aww sadded and gotta run with me!!!!

woke up late today and lucky me.

i wasnt late^^ hehe

ehh lessons are the usual boring ones.

and seriously people, you gotta stop asking

my where is elvina just because she is not

in school!!!!! i am not her mom!!!!!

nvm...

anyway went for tuition after trimming

my fringe and so ...

shall not continue any longer

dad nagging==''

till next time^^

*
cya~

buh byes~

2010-04-16T22:13:00.003+08:00

finally a post!!!!

i just hope there is a day

where i can escape from reality

and with my friends all of

us could walk hand in hand

down the oceans and drown

ourselves...

like seriously who cares??

fine i might be seriously

true about the first few

parts but not the last sentence==''

tell you guys wat i cry,

i fall and i hurt but i am free

so cant you people at least have

a chance to cheer you up??

forget about it.

i know you hate

me talking to her but i didnt

and the next moment, you just

ignored me like i just did.

i seriously was quite pissed

and have to hold it back cause

if i started ignoring, i can tell you

that you wont be following anyone

anymore.

i might have neglected you but let me

ask you this.

is being too sociable illegal??

i am not giving a damn.

today had school and woke up

late thanks to some people.

yeah. watever.

rush to school to arrange the

tables and chairs in place and

thank yous jonathan for coming

late on purpose leaving me and

wenlong to arrange.

and another thank yous for people

coming early and not helping out

you guys are the best friends i

ever have^^

POA started and i have already

hoped that it's going to end

immediately. it's group work on

cash book and bank reconcilation which

i sucked at the most. so yeah POA

officially sucks today.

a maths i slept and mrs lee used the

magazine that ms neo wanted to show

me to wack my head .

i must thank her cause after that i felt

very energetic all the way till after

odac^^

after school got chem test. and ms elfie

allow us to use our notes to check but

i didnt bring and i see my friends need

them even if they have extra the imporant

points are not there. anyway i was rushing

for time too.so i just left. like seriously

who wants to fail their chem test??

rushed home and back to school. today

was west cluster competition as usual

the results were same as last year==''

nvm. went home after that. the end.

big note::

BR****N. TELL ME WAT'S YOUR FREAKING PROBLEM?!?!?!?!!??!?!?!?! YOU CONFESSED THAN NOW YOU TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE YOU FORGOT. SO I PLAYED ALONG AND YOU SCOLDED ME WAT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?? CAN I JUST WISH YOU COULD FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE?? YES I DID INSULT YOU BUT I GOTTA ASK. IF YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS CANT SURVIVE A SMALL INSULT FROM YOU, YOU ARE NOT CONSIDERED AS A FRIEND ANYMORE YOU ARE JUST AN ASSHOLE THAT IS TREATING YOUR FRIEND AS AN SUBSTITUTE FOR SPENDING YOUR BOREDOM SO TELL YOU WAT IF YOU CANT ACCEPT IT THAN JUST FUCK OFF CAUSE I DON'T APPRECIATE A FRIEND THAT'S SIMILAR TO A SPOILED BRAT LIKE YOU!!!!!!!

2010-04-08T20:15:00.002+08:00

moving to another circle...

okies finally posting but some

poeple might not like this post

but this is my blog so i am just giving

suggestions.

*
went to school as usual^^

did some e maths and talked to duh

and jingyi came. weird though

cause usually chloe would come first

so chatted with jingyi and duh till

chloe came then suddenly very quiet==''

anyway duh talk to chloe and i just

turn back to my table till bell rang

and jingyi went to find karen and gladys

while i followed chloe...so and so...

shall skip some of it....

after school i need not stay back

so went out with jingyi, liting, liching

and duh went to watch clash of the titans

3D. i prefer 2D anyway it is fun that is

wat matters the most^^

before the movie was quite a period

of time so we walked around the basement

and later did something super funny.

we stand outside the mei zhen xiang[in chinese]

shop and there is a corner where they show

us how they barbecue it so the 4 of us

stare at the guy cooking.HAHA. until he is

done with everything then we walked

away but the funny thing is he kept

avoiding our stares... super hyped up

so had a lot of fun today^^

i gotta let you know that your

problems must be solved yourself

by pushing it to others it will only

make it worst.

through times you gone through

this is the worst. but if you got

the will to change for the better but

not just talking blindly, thing would

turn out to be much better.

the middle person could never get

a stand as it would make the

situation worst. i can do nothing

to help other than calming both sides

if you know you are mostly the one

who is wrong, than take a step back

it will do good for the both of you.

cause now who is right and who

is wrong does not really matter

as much as before.

yupp that's all for today

gotta go~

cya~

buh byes~

2010-04-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

yeah!!!!

nothing wrong with me i am

just super high^^

posting for yesterday and today^^

02.04.2010

HAPPY B'DAY WEICONG/BABE!!!!!!

yupp today is his b'day^^

but unable to attend his

gathering sadded but at least i

had fun with my family^^

went out to watch clash of the titans^^

soooo nice people that think it sucks,

you suck. or maybe our tastes are

just different =='' nvm ignore wat i said

anyway after that i went to grandma's

house and scamed duh^^

haha it was super funny cause i sms

him that i was outside his house

cause but i wasnt haha...

and he was like walao make me

happy for awhile =='' anyway it was

super funny.....

ate dinner and went home

end of day^^

***
****

*****

****
***

03.04.2010

i woke up earlier than usual^^
like around 10am cause i usually sleep

around 3am ==''

packed and went for badminton training

saw pearlyn and brandon on the way

to warren^^

during badminton some fucking

bitches made me angry again

forget it they are spoiled brats

like there were 4 of them super

fucked up like they were only pri6

to sec1 act so big for wat??

dont wan play get out of the court

laa dunwan hit the shuttle dont hit

laa hit liao give so high the net not

you tio smash leh i kena smash by the shuttle

okay you this fucking bitch!!!! i am

the one that got smashed by that

bloody shuttle!!!!! okay kena smashed

and from 20-12 we leading become

22-20 we lose nvm you still go

complain to your sister?!?!?!?!

bloodly hell keep staring at me...

FUCK YOU LAA stare wat stare?!

want come say in my face la!!!

keep complaining to your sister==''

fucker you lucky got brandon to calm

me down or else i have already shouted

across and screamed at you scold you

like you have never been scolded

like before YOU THIS FUCKING BITCH!!!!

anyway after that i went to YOG training

super fun and i eased up and went into hyper

mode^^

WOOTS was joking with yihan against me

and sharon shoot until he got nothing to say!!!

SHARON YOU ROCK!!!! we shall repeat

the same routine again^^

just reached grandma house

gotta end here==''

mum nagging==''

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

like i got nothing to post today==''

nvm shall anyhow bomb...

created i new blog

but only posting essays i

write so far only got one==''

anyway the link is there

underMEEEE..==''

school is fun ^^

during english lesson, i

almost fell off my chair due to

laughing^^

thanks to the vocab worksheet^^

and a maths remedial cancelled

so went home early

and and i finished the whole chop chop

ninja trail version^^

soo happy^^

very excited now^^

hopefully tmr it wont rain

as i will be bringing

my running shoe^^

must get 5points for 2.4km run^^

yay^^

gotta get gold this year too^^

ending here~

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-27T22:39:00.004+08:00

things have gone from bad to worst....

i am like losing everything again

anyway i will get to the point...

26.03.2010

went to school as usual...

did a maths homework

and got scolded by mrs lee

later on...

in class she called me 3times

cause i doze off while she is teaching

integration...

yupp so thats why...

blahblahblah

after school, camped in 4n2

classroom and teng wee, leon

and i spammed the game

chop chop ninja...

super funny than did some other things

2.30 went down to bus bay to

meet ODAC people than went off

as well as saw duh man jun

and eugene went off together

but eugene took the bus to east coast

cause he stay somewhere near there

meet the rest around 5.30 at lot

cause going for the band concert together

so when everyone is there we went to lot

the eat pizza hut... luckily i am not eating

pizza==''

was almost late so we walked and run

to the concert hall^^

zhan jiang was leading the way

so the rest followed so when running

in high heels, seriously it didnt hurt

but when i stop and rest it did==''

anyway we were running and

shanice cant keep up so i hold

her hand and we ran together^^

reached overall the concert

is fun and i like the encore songs

and totoro... brings back the past^^

after that met with other people

and ate supper^^[o.O i drink]

haha than duh and i left the group^^

went to singapore river/singapore pond

sat there and chatted...he said

he wanted to tell me something but

his mind suddenly went blank

so i just thought of something

and that thought vanished as

soon as i thought of it==''

walked around and nadaa

i and late home dad lectured me on

somethings wile mum just talk to

me but didnt say anything

not gonna mention wat she or he said

cause i think its being unfair to me

than i went to sleep

***

27.03.2010

went to badminton training

and realised i miss the bus and

i am going to be late before that i was

thinking...

WTF?? got blisters think its

cause of that bloody high heels...nvm

went and got difficulty running

shit ==''

played match and my cousin seriously

sucked at it and keep blaming me as if

its my fault bloody hell wat's her prob?!

got YOG dance training so went today

they overshot the timing so and so...

than i told the ICs i will not be there

next week cause got camp than the

guys in my group say avatar camp

cause one of the weeks i wore blue contacts...

went home after that, so going to sleep now

cya~
buh byes~

2010-03-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

first things first...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON WHORE!!!

okay ya that's all for today...

nah just kidding==''

but i am not really in a

good mood today dunno why[o.O]

maybe i posting something else later^^

yupp so going to post for today..

woke up on time and as usual

went to school..supposed to meet

up with duh but he was late so yeah...

bought duh a mizuno shirt that is super

expensive but the worst thing

is that its the wrong size==''

but he say can fit... starting i dont

really believe him but later i saw

got evidence that bwg==''

school sucks as usual...hiya....

why cant school be like singapore poly??

nvm...during recess talked to

cally xueli and ade plus some others

than liting was'nt happy and

cried in class totally freaked out so

i kept asking her not to ignore me

but after a while she is okay already

so lucky me but should'nt try it again...

during lifeskill mrs lee allow us

to do watever we wanted so

i took out the i pod touch abd share

it among jingyi, chole, liting and myself

chole took my ipod touch for a walk

later on and i assume she is totally obsessed

with the monkey game^^

*
after school there is e maths exam[some sort of]

so i took paper 2 as i took paper1

on sat...pathetic....

so i totally got stunned after looking

at the first question...

and was pretty stress cause i was trying to

remember everything i forgot

however successfully failed

therefore i might fail this test==''

after that went to tuition

totally lost my mood to study

still trying v.hard to

remember all the formulae

like i was going crazy and

was super hungry==''

so no mood at all think i am gonna

crash after this....

still in my uniform[EWWW]

cause i just reach home...so....

i needa bathe...

gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just hope you

could just go and die..but when the

next day come, i totally

forgotten wat i have said

yesterday..but this time i

needa take at least a week

the whole AEM thingy is

starting to make me feel

pissed off and sick lies were

all over...everyday was like

creating a new type of vulgar

code that people cant discover

this is really sick... you wore a mask

for the first 2 days and later

starting to give me attitude...

bloody hell...shall bear with

it. i only got another 1 last day

to look at that bloody mask

filled with lies for this one last day

i do have evidence i am

not accusing you in anyway

i sent it to you and know

that you recieved my email

at night i spammed call people like

you wasting my phone calls

and you didnt pick up. dont

even bother to call back next

day when i ask you you tell me

some shit like i didnt get your email.

than why never call back.

i didnt ask cause its in the bus

and FYI i wasnt in a good mood

considering i stayed up late hoping you

would post those bloody pictures online

but you didnt. if i could i would

have already placed my fist in your face

instead of venting my anger on

someone else later on....bloody hell

later on you continued something

like eh glennis you must know

that i didnt even recieve the sms

i did not delete it...

why emphasize on the must and didnt

recieve?? obviously up to something

right?? later at night i got the photos

posted on facebook than wat??

definitely not all were posted.

ending here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-16T23:14:00.003+08:00

woah i just got another sms
guess wat this suddenly sound
like a pro-breakup thingy
yeah...watever
wat help you?!
must be crazy. like seriously
and know wat?!
its like you are encouraging me to ignore
you to wat make you feel guilty?!
yeah actually i really hope someone
can come and slap me in the face
and tell me this type of things
can stop happening to me...
yeah right i AM stopping this
cause i AM giving up...
go away...like seriously..
SHOO!!!

2010-03-16T21:24:00.003+08:00

you just sent me a message calling

me to ignore you.

let me guess you want to study?

go ahead, i will ignore but

i didnt get a reason. wat's

the point? i have disturbed you

too much for the past few days?

not only do i get a funny and

ridiculous message from you

when i agreed you replied

thank you wat does that mean

i would rather you just stop

replying my sms and i will know

wat you are trying to say okay?!

i seriously dont know what

to do. and just got a bloody hell

weird sms when my contacts are

irritating me like hell.know wat?

things that should be done arent

done so guess wat i will extend the

time.mark my words. i will do wat i say

AEM started on monday

so i didnt post yesterday so i shall

post for today...

so today started quite bad cause

first things first, i woke up late==''

rushed to mrt station and saw

aaroson. surprisingly he is late too^^
el smsed me asking me solutions cause she

ran out of pants and was late

so she went directly down to singapore

poly herself...

after lunch went to somewhere to

so project and i keep using some

weird voice to ask for directions so and so

it was freaking fun especially for jasper,

artika and me cause we went somewhere

jiawen and elvina didnt go^^

meet re[lecturer] at city hall's mac

and was dismissed early^^

went home with jasper jiawen and elvina

as usual i am the last to alight...

who ask me to stay so far away?!

nvm.. used to it already

*
meet mum and sis and warren country club

and played bowling highest score

today is 91. not bad considering my

eyes being irritating...

as there was a point of time when i wanted

to pluck the whole eyeball out and pushed

it back in. so i was clinging on to jiawen,

artika and elvina whole day.

so yupp thats all

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-14T00:18:00.003+08:00

YESS!!!

i am going to post for today...

or was it yesterday??

nvm i also hack care==''

the point is i am going to

post like finally!!!!

12.03.2010

got back my results today

i got two As^^

quite satisfied ^^

was really hyper today^^

got CCA went to yishun safra

to climb a 25m wall estimated

7floors... was fun though tired

but still happy cause i achieved

new experiences^^

soo happy!!!!

oh and must thank eugene eng

cause he accompanied me throughout

the whole day as well as wei theng!!!

hehe....

meet duh at jelapang together with

rasyid and lynn^^ cool rite??

anyway duh sent me home

that's all for that day^^

***

****

***

13.03.2010

today is a saturday!!!!

school holidays finally started!!!

but somehow it isnt like holidays

cause there is uch homework and

throughout the whole week i got AEM

so i still gotta wake up early==''

nvm...

went for badminton training

hehe... the process was super funny

cause during the games i was flirting

with some gals...

keep making the kissing noise

then next thing you know,

they miss the shuttle^^

haha super funny^^

after badminton went home put my

stuff and went to lot1 for my dinner

meet duh there and saw...

hannie and zuanlong!!!!!

haha i think its hilarious nvm

shant continue...^^...

so pulled duh along to toa payoh

than he u-turned to clementi

sadded cause i think its very far and

he was late==''

sorry...

yupp had fun during the dance training

YAY!!!

than came home that's all

gotta end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-10T21:26:00.001+08:00

flying off to my wonderland

cutting off connections with people

i know till i feel like coming back

most probably i wont^^

luh i drifting off

NOW!!!

drifting off

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-09T20:20:00.005+08:00

have not been posting

for quite some time so

since i am happy today i

shall post^^

*
went to school as usual,

so during school time,

elvina didnt appear in school

today so....

jingyi and i wanted to watch

alice in wonderland so we kept

bugging chloe.

while she is debating on percy

jackson and alice in wonderland

but in the end we still went for

alice in wonderland^^

so my bloody phone got problems again

so gotta degrade for a while

and tadaa!!!! its a samsung touch-screen

phone and again i am not used to it

but...

THANK YOU CHLOE!!!!!!~

cause she kept smsing me and

i can got used to it very soon^^

so yupp^^

after school went home bathe and

meet jingyi and chloe at lot one^^

invited elvina along but she didnt

seem to be awake and switched

off her phone==''

at the same time invited duh but he got

remedial hopeless guy==''

yupp so three of us went to watch^^

before that went to buy some

food to eat cause i was super

hungry==''

while waiting for the food i

keep bouncing in front of chloe

that made her half dizzy^^

haha didnt do it on purpose

but you gotta know i was very

hyper not sure why==''

maybe sugar rush?? nah i doubt it

overall the movie is superb!!!!

haha super funny^^

alice slayed a dragon and the

fiercest animals are so cute to

me excluding the dragon but

it will be cool if i have a pet like that^^

*
all three of us got super hyper and

chloe somehow become the red queen[o.O]

cause chloe is wearing uniform

while jingyi is the white queen[o.O]

jingyi wearing white color tank top

i was wearing orange so maybe i am the

mad hatter??[OH MY GOSH!!!!]

haha too hyped up==''

*
went home on the way talking to duh

and did something bad to him^^

haha shall not mention

*
gotta end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

tell you something

i lazy to post ^^

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

WTF??

yupp just my week things

just keep getting better

for the worst...

today is the 3rd month

dating duh so yeah guiming

lost the bet^^
so school starts nothing much

until chinese like the second

last period and chloe dont feel

well and went home

accompanied her to the general office

and wait till her dad comes==''

hope she gets well soon...T.T

after school there was the

social studies workshop so

shall share one joke

teacher asked wat's the difference

between 1980s and 1980.

so wei cong said the s but actually

it means 1980-1989 so it was funny

dont get the joke, you suck then

*
after that met duh

dont know why end up 7girls

waiting for that guy==''

and we shouted at anyone that J-walked==''

all thanks to wei cong that started it==''

went home ride the bike from yew tee

cause my mum left it there==''

went to 17floor and chatted with duh

as in hello? my mum at home that's why

plus it's anniversary==''

so chatted and this guy and girl slammed

the door opened and shouted in chinese

'hey i caught you guys two times already

can you both get out of here?!'

so first things first, that was my first

time seeing them there.

secondly, they are worst. they just kissed

infront of the 1 floor lift and its like so obscene

brainless people.

and its like we were just talking wat's their

problem?!or is it they want to take that place

to do their thing?!

my mind was processing the things he said while

staring at that bastard and bitch when duh

just apologized and called me to go up==''

dont know wat if their fucking problem!!!!

RAWR!!!!

maybe they do that something like

RAWR!! i an an ant maybe worst a

bacteria that rawrs!!!! brainless freaks

yupp so end the chatting unhappily like

thanks a lot to the two freaks...

watever. anyway ending here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-03-02T19:02:00.003+08:00

eww??

was supposed to go to queenstown

to collect my sis racket cause

the string snapped==''

but didnt go cause got

social studies workshop

and when i came back i saw

two people kissing at the stairway

like eww??

cant they at least close the door?

so anyway i dont care f they were

looking at me.

i slammed the door and went

home. at least i didnt take a photo

and post it==''

ehh wait...cool shall try it next time^^

EVIL=='' [like i care]

anyway not much today so it

will be a short post

***

when all is dark and cold

i would be there to warm

your soul,

if you fall,

i will just make sure

all your pain would be mine

leaving you no hurt and

carrying on to another guy/gal

*
yupp gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-02-28T22:18:00.005+08:00

okay...

friday post...gonna be a short one^^

*
26.02.2010

happy!!!!

cause got CCA^^

got back my chinese and POA

results surprisingly i scored well

a2 for chinese and a b3 for POA

but still not up to standard so

gotta study harder...

sogonna skip till after school

so as usual fly home get the gears

i need for trekking and fly back to school

so when there to trek walking with

ferris, guo an, wei theng and iqmal

mostly with wei theng cause got

more things to talk about....

argh some of the sec 1s from hawk were

super noisy cause its like

HELLO??!! we are trekking in the

some sort of nature reserve so cant

you guys just shut the fuck up?

warned them but soon it started

again so i just bear with it...

started raining soon so i was

about to wear my poncho till

i saw one of the juniors without

poncho so i lend it to them^^

and shared one with wei theng

end up we just walked in the rain

together so the result is obvious

cause it is just being drenched

from head to toe and this isnt the

worst cause the worst is getting

into an air con bus drenched cause

it is freaking cold so reach school after

30min...

waited for duh outside school with ferris,

guo an, iqmal and wei theng...

so ferris got some errand to run so

he left first later on iqmal left...

than left wei theng and guo an

so wei theng use my phone and threatened

duh==''

something like glennis is holding me hostage

so you have to reach school in 10min

with 2k if not she will kill me==''

but i dont blame him from doing that cause

we waited for 50mins plus minus==''

so yup he came later send me back home

and thats the end of the day^^

ending here

cya~

buh byes~

***

****

*****

****

***

aaron,me and ronald during jackpot game

yupp i am posting^^

gonna post about yesterday

cause i dont feel like posting for

today==''

nah i already posted==''

27.02.2010

had badminton today YEAH!!

and nana came back and her

first two headshots are from me

and glacier cause we just finished

warming up and she came in so we

took the shuttle and throw it

directly at her head^^

badminton was fun but me and my

sis gotta end early cause got dinner

with some of the religion friends^^

*
went to auntie corina's house and

talk with ronald and amber

so talk talk talk till dinner started

it was buffet so i lost my appetite

and auntie corina's husband started

organizing some jackpot game so

i make ronald volunteer i joined in

and so did ronald's brother aaron==''

had fun cause i got something

yupp so later went off after

the game and headed towards sentosa^^

saw the newly build universal studio^^

it is like soo cool.....

hanging around my dad's boss house

located at sentosa cove i think==''

drink wine mixed with choya^^
ended up blushing==''

cracked a joke with duh through

the phone super funny^^

when the wind blows,

i hope all the sadness accumulated

would be blow away in a flash.

all the hurt i have received would

be drown away by coldness of the water

and yes.

i am in the middle of the pool finding

my way out of the dark.

out of the coldness that is pulling

the sadness and hurt away

but i realized it is not possible as

i am only filled with those to thoughts

therefore i could only live with it

or drown with them so i would

rather drown with them so

goodbye my love ones.

i will leave you behind now...

went home and slept after that

so gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-02-24T17:53:00.004+08:00

WOOTS!!!!!!

i got full marks for e maths

test!!!!!

first time!!!

*
this morning i overslept so yeah

call me a pig if you want but

just dont let me know==''

so was rushing and was in a bad

mood cause i saw some bitch on the lrt

yupp so that's it but got over it

after reaching class.

realise i walk super fast==''

and duh's IC still with me only realise

it when chloe told him==''

1 word for you is called DUMB!!

haha joking

pe is super fun!!! but i almost

got caught by mr.seng for some

things end up i slip away^^

so blah blah blah till e maths

yes i am bragging about it but

you cant blame me cause its

the first time==''..^^

scored full marks send duh a

sms like

>>AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

haha didnt reply after that==''

elvina got second!!!

so the buddies took the first

and secong place^^

chinese was having CA1 and i think

it is super difficult dunno why==''

but during the test the class is

super irritating thanks to people

like de ming, kelvin and angle

neh irritating but hope i pass

and wish jing yi score higher than me

so she can be happy^^

and chloe M.U.S.T pass so she will

be happy too^^

the other two guys? good luck ba...

i dunno wat to say==''

*
flew home after school for tuition

so blah blah blah

gotta end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-02-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

okay so i got my second blog
to prevent unwanted comments==''
posting for yesterday though
not much will have to shorten it
cause gotta go for training^^
*
20.02.2010
not much though think i will be
failing my POA test due to personal
reasons.thinking of some ideas
to stop people i dont know from
reading the blog so change it to
private.yupp thats all. school
sucks as usual and el went MIA
again so was hanging around with
liching and liting or is it ti ting?
haha kidding dont come beat me==''
*
after school 'fly' home to change
and was back to school for ODAC.
did the new high elements.the one on the
4floor super cool.heard unnecessary comments
from weijun.about the jieyi thing
like i was already super pissed off==''.
as usual took equipments up.so
gotta thank valarie,elieen and guiming.
yupp so ending here.
cause blogger giving me problems
*
cya~
buh byes~

2010-02-18T17:18:00.008+08:00

happy now??

i think you are

but too bad i am not

not gonna post anything today

today thanks to the bad mood

so ending here

cya~

buh byes~

i never wanted you to help me settle it by

helping you would only make me more pissed off

2010-02-17T18:46:00.002+08:00

yupp this blog is going to be dead
know why?

cause there are too many test to

study for and too many homework

to complete so i was only enjoying

the first two days of chinese new year

therefore i would like to thank my

school teachers for giving me such

a nice present for chinese new year

[might be too sacarstic but i dont care]

now is 2.44am and i needa study for ss test==''

nvm just for this and next week...

yesterday was talking to duh till 2 plus so slept

for a while and went to school

so he overslept again. waited for him at the

station... went to school and nothing much

happened==''

pe was okay quite boring got nothing

much to say...

after school got e maths express test

think i gonna score below my average score

cause i am the first one to hand in cause

i rushing for time so it should also result

in first one to fail=='' sadded

poa tuition was quite fun learned

amagalation and was coping revising

with depreciation next week cause

she is teaching faster than the school

if you dont want to study,

than just get to the back of the classroom

and shut the f up

dont move about making noises

and just try to learn and ask if you dont

understand. some people same as you

got the same case and can keep his

mouth shut and listen but why cant you?

next time why not you just shut up

and listen try to write some notes
to revise cause even if you hate the subject

you still have to take the test.

that was wat i felt but not holding
any grudge against her==''

so gonna end here

cya~
buh byes~

2010-02-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EARLY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
*
haha chinese new year kicks off tmr!!
it means my debt from some people
is gonna be paid[hopefully=='']
and more income!!!
*
posting for yesterday and today yupp...
*
13.02.2010
having chinese new year celebration
in school... and realised a trend ==''
the performances are alternate...
as in if this yeaar is nice next would
be bad than good again==''
hack care shall enjoy it cause its my
last two years there^^
*
the day started by me oversleeping
by like 45 mins?? yupp and totally
spoiled my mood=='' but was better
after a few mins of blasting music in
the ear^^...
duh pon school today but saw him later
as i went out with his group of friends
was wearing purple contacts as promised
cause elvina was also wearing purple contacts
but hers is bright purple while mine was dark
and that make hers super obvious and scary
from my point of view... but got used to it
after a while==''
*
POA was the first and last lesson for
the day and it sucked... cause i got extra
homework and finished it within 20 min
and walked around before she give me
extra homework again like this is damn
unfair but end up she gave the rest of the class
the same piece of homework shitty hell
*
performance was nice especially the hope
concert... the others was also nice like that was the
only part i enjoyed==''
oh and the question and answer part==''
chloe hold my hand and raised it up high!!!
like so cool!! and hurts!!! a lot^^
*
school and i was being like a retard for
something i hope not to remember and went
home. met kendre and he left than i got ready
and went to meet duh...
*
TWEET that is wat i keep telling edwina^^
the group consists of xenia,zuanlong,hannie,
zhanjiang,shanice,edwina,duh.
so went to ajisen to eat and walked around after
that than wat else??
oh we departed and xenia went to but something
while the rest of us went to the MRT...
*

later some of us went to play bowling

and i finally win duh according to the

overall... but i left after two rounds

cause my mum wants me home==''

so thats all

***

13.02.2010

YES!!!LIKE SPRING CLEANING!!!

it's joker day!!! like finally...

==''i said it twice==''

nvm but it is cause when packing out stuff

gla and i would start joking and blaming

stuff on each other that's wat makes it fun

and interesting...plus whenver my mum

calls for us would shout what?! very loudly

and i can confirm it is very loud cause once

gla was standing beside me and i shouted

she was like WTF and her expression shows

that it hurts a. lot.

dad came homeand keep calling us to help

out so gla and i started shooting him

and soon mum joined in cause all of us

are packing while he is watching tv....

shoot until he helped out==''

but my mum moped the floor already than

he go mop again so its like alamak!!==''

therefore further proves guys are not suitable

to do housework. AT ALL!!!

now currently now at grandma's house

helping out^^

i am not even mad at you

dont know why you think so

gonna end here

cya~
buh byes~

2010-02-10T18:32:00.002+08:00

ehh...

i dunno wat to post so

just pick up some points==''

eating mee sua^^ like finally==''

anyway poa tuition just ended

hopefully those taking the re-test

today would pass with flying colors!!!

09.02.2010

yesterday as usual went to school

anyway school was boring...

after school there was e maths

remedial so stayed back till the

end than later,

jiawen, elvina, azlina, kalisa and i

stayed back for the CNY class deco

elvina and i did the front and the

others did the back....

we've gotta hang some things close

celling and [the guys from our class

doesn't seems to exist] so we took the

roller and place a chair on top of it...

it was not really stable as the chair

only had like 3 and a half the is positioned

in a way it would not fall...

so to conclude it , the chair was shaky==''

i climbed up a few times and gave up

so elvina took over me but she is taller

so she just have to stretch and tadaa

it is done^^

went off to meet duh and camped at

the library did 4 poa[partnership] questions

and went home...

he send me back home

but seems like i was late as my mum was

nagging at me throughout the whole dinner

like SIAN!!!

talked to duh at night and guess wat??

HE DOZE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cap it to let him know^^]

anyway that's all

***

forward

the words you had once told me,

i remembered them.

the ways you used to hold me,

are just not brought forward.

if i am looking for you,

would you appear ?

or will you just lie in the dark,

knowing nothing of the bright?

gonna end here

cause not much

cya~

buh byes~

2010-02-06T22:39:00.005+08:00

er...
nothing much happened today==''
anyway gonna post somthing
*
05.02.2010
this morning school was as usual
so i will be saying things that are
the highlight of my day...
so during morning assembly
jingyi, chloe, gladys and me started
finding each other's sensitive point^^
so physically chloe have 3, jingyi, gladys
and me got 1, i think==''
so we were fooling around==''
that's all
*
so later 'fly' home and 'fly' back for odac
and it rained==''
so literally challenging the rain cause keep
shouting if not they cant hear...
the seniors played captain ball while the sec1
practice their belaying...
so yeah...
before ending the CCA, all odac people went
for the 2.4km run like WTF?? obviously cause
i not wearing the correct shoe==''
and it just rained==''
nvm so run run and run till going down
the canal ramp and
TADAA !!!!!!
i fell==''
got 3 scares from the kneecap to the ankle
some people called me to stop but i didnt
and continue to jog...==''....
my mind must not be working well cause
it hurts quite badly==''
the second meeting point is at the traffic light
and i checked the wound and found out that
the wound was bleeding from the kneecap to the
ankle==''....
some people keep calling me to jog and i was like
WTF??again cause they must be cock eye de
cant see that bloody wound==''
yeah so yupp like that==''
*
later s neo de-breif us and
wei jun, eugene, raysid, iqmal and i went
to keep the equipment.... and it was like i took 3 ropes
and 6 harness and the guys individualy took lesser
than me must be they are gays =='' suck people
hiya i no comments liao==''
*
meet duh at the station....
went there with eugene and raysid...
than blah blah blah==''....
*
as usual duh accompanied me home and guess wat??
dad invited him up for a meal==''
like ,'eh duh you should know that you are the first
guy that ever ate with my whole family==''.'
anyway not gonna continue for this day...
*
06.01.2010
went to lot1 and eat with my family
than wentfor badminton for traning^^
glacier's sprained ankle haven fully recovered
so she watch the process of the training...==''
started of with 2 handicap matches...
like thanks a lot...
anyway first was two people against me and i won
like they are noobs haha joking they can still
improve just that one of them thin too highly
of herself==''
second one was against pearlyn she start at 10 points
so like i almost lost so in conclusion is that i won^^
not much today==''
but played a lot of matches now at grandmother's house
*
gotta end here
cause some people want to use the laptop
like asshole nvm
so i shall end
cya~
buh byes~

2010-02-04T19:47:00.004+08:00

got not much happened today

gonna post anything but i wana

thanks duh for his confirmation in

the decision if my parents demand

the answer... i thank you and real sorry

love you lots

gonna end here~

cya~

buh byes~

2010-02-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

2010-02-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

when there is a point of unhappiness tell me,

i will try to change.

but if its just another complain of jealously

coming indirectly at me, i'll take it that you

are just playing a prank or do not have the

courage to say it otherwise you are just

being childish and ignoring their words...

thought of those when i saw something and something

anyway thats wat i felt and i've got something to discuss

with duh though still not very sure==''

but i think its counted as serious idk why but the feeling's there

anyway, gonna post about today

was first few to reach cause i dont see wen long in the classroom

and more ever the sec3 people were earlier like those siao people

anyway went in and talk to duh and realise that tmr is the 2 month

dating already quite surprised....

gonna rewind till 5.30 when i wake up and find duh still on the call==''

v. surprised cause i thought that he would cut off==''

so i spotted eye bags like in the morning==''...

[cant he just get more sleep??]

lesson started and mother tongue was first so was bored gonna

highlight some points only...

ermm... jing yi got a new friend named ah piao^^ haha long

story lazy to type out.... so we said a lot of things that

incredibly linked to ah piao^^

after school chloe seems stressed and jing yi was outside with

her so i went out to hang around so i notice chloe was stressed

cause she cant attend her piano lesson so wet to talk to her about

it and i got yelled at=='' as expected after knowing her for 4 years

so she keep yelling and i just tried to think of answers and cant cope

up and just shut up and listened so after a while she got a call and went

to somewhere near the toilet... so i got yelled at again=='' i think i am

gonna get yelled at for the rest of my life=='' not sure why though==''

after the bloody hell a maths remedial, went to fajar to eat mac

and send jing yi home halfway... chloe alighted at bp

and i alight at lot 1 proceeded to the library to study==''

so until around 6.30 plus duh came and accompanied me home^^

reach home and i WAS happy that my dad is finally home

and after 5sec my mood was spoiled by his presence

he knew that i am dating someone and said it out loud==''

just ended a lecture with him and it lasted around 30min

and more so i just say uh huh, yupp, maybe, not sure, no

the conversation was literally dead cause it was just

beating around the bushes and straight to the point

seriously one word to describe the conversation

=DEAD

a little of wat i felt at the top of the post after seeing something in fb

so that's all for today as there are more things i gotta settle

now

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-31T00:09:00.001+08:00

NOW I AM TALKING TO SOME

SUCKER AND BIRDY NAMED

DUH AND EDWINA RESPECTIVELY!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T19:12:00.005+08:00

i know i posted earlier today

but after badminton i want to

post something more cause something

happened during badminton

though not a big thing... haha

reach warren for training around

3.50plus and started stroking with

glacier guess wat? after 5min of stroking

i got a v. hard head shot from glacier

my dearest sister so i needa say

THANKS A LOT GLACIER!!!

so after that continue stroking

until there was a game ==''

like during the fourth game glacier's

racket string snapped so lala she

gotta go re-string at queenstown

soon like maybe on monday==''

during this match i gotta run around

cause the auntie thats my partner

dont want to so i ended up running

from left to right back to the left

and front so on the one going to the front,

i cant reach in time to save to shuttle so

i kneel and slide to save the shuttle==''

end up the shuttle got saved but i got a small

burn so i didnt to expect to get a burn

cause i thought only people from volleyball

gotta do that==''

so was not really that pain or rather by

kneeling on the floor numb it that's why

...o.O...==''...-.-...

anyway thats for today

and me and glacier prank called duh

70 over times!!!cool right??

shall try it again sometime^^

so ending here^^

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-30T12:20:00.003+08:00

huh n wat?

okie the top title is to agitate

aikee^^ ahyi aka da jie like it??

haha i bet she will give me a diao

face...==''...^^

gonna post for some of the days

mostly yesterday and maybe

today cause i going to badminton

training later==''

29.10.2010

ehh...

yesterday was very tired but fun^^

as usual meet duh and went to school

together if i remember he was SUPER late

cause two senja trains went by==''

change phone with him before school

till after CCA==''

school was okay but a bit boring

so i am just gonna skip through it

okie after school got chem remedial

and test... think i am gonna fail that test

badly didnt even study for it==''

ended around 2plus than went to 4e2 to

meet wei jun and xin yi for briefing

not much cause it only lasted for 10 min

so later on, went down to put ny bag at

the bus bay and was like WTF?!

why the NPCC people come to our odac

meeting place??

anyway the odac people placed their bags at

the area below the ramp so saw eileen and

went loitering with her till i saw jing yi, leon,

wei cong, sheng hong, wei cong and went to the

art room with them... saw mdm felicity lim

and talk to her for a bit than went for odac^^

as usual the first lesson was super difficult

and can almost make me go berserk ==''

the community members and yun dian

teach the sec1 people how to belay and

it is so difficult to teach them that i seriously

hope to scream and shout at them

especially when the contact lens have been

in my eyes for like the whole day==''

RAWR!!

anyway most of them get it but some of them still

make me worried==''

like woo so scary but soon it will be okay like

the last year and the last last year==''

after CCA met up with duh and finally know who

is man jun[sorry if spell wrongly]

went back with zhan jiang man jun and duh

and saw one of the NCC senior^^

haha she still remember me^^

was tired reach home around 8plus and mum

keep nagging at me so i ignored her

throughout the whole nagging conversation

and went to sleep early cause was super tired

woke up next day at 6 plus and took out the

contacts should stop doing that soon==''

30.10.2010

okie just cut off duh's phone

actually the other way round cause his

phone no batt==''

going badminton later so hopefully

its gonna be okay

gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-27T19:12:00.005+08:00

wow?

shall be posting for this 2days

mostly yesterday as today not

much happen though school was

fun and enjoyable just happy

she started talking to me again^^

***

26.01.2010

happy b'day leon aka white dragon!!!

haha lol sian==''...

he got cake smashed==''

haha

...

today in the morning met duh and

went to school together^^

than took his phone==''

so he took mine but returned it

to me after morning assembly

BUT!!

he forgot to take back his own phone==''

so i was holding onto it till after school

around 4plus when he finished his

volleyball match against jurong west

and they won!!...==''

before that had a small fight with elvina

but after a while we talked again as usual

like nothing happened before^^ like haha

fighting between us was like nothing??

he came over to my house and

took some photos of him with

stitch on his head^^

was super tired so after

sending him to yew tee mrt i directly

went home and bathe again and slept

before he sms me=='' tired...o.O

***

27.01.2010

AAHHHHH!!!

elvina going dye her hair today!!

and sadly i cant join her AHHHH!!

now i am jealous==''

nvm soon, its soon that i will dye my

hair again!!!RAWR!!!

today as usual after the e maths test

rushed back home for POA tuition

than, almost doze off as i was super tired==''

anyway, chloe and i started talking again!!^^

so, today p.e, did nothing like super

bored two weeks no p.e le!!!

SOBBS**

11.26pm

trying to figure out everything you say

but why is it so difficult?

everything you said is so difficult to understand

every single word that came out of your mouth

doesn't seem to touch me.

all the meanings i just don't feel it anymore

it seems to me that you are deaf and blind

avoiding and denying all the facts that i said

taking away all my freedom and became

a jealous freak, this have to stop now

all the hurting and so just to let you know...

got nothing to do and thought

of that haha still in a good mood though^^

Shall we, too, rise forgetful from our sleep,
And shall my soul that lies within your hand
Remember nothing, as the blowing sand
Forgets the palm where long blue shadows creep
When winds along the darkened desert sweep?

Or would it still remember, tho' it spanned

A thousand heavens, while the planets fanned

The vacant ether with their voices deep?
Soul of my soul, no word shall be forgot,
Nor yet alone, beloved, shall we see

The desolation of extinguished suns,
Nor fear the void wherethro' our planet runs,
For still together shall we go and not
Fare forth alone to front eternity.

found it on web think its great

so gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

haha?WTH am i thinking??

guess wat

thinking back

maybe if i have a good night sleep and

think over maybe i will ask her after

all about why is she ignoring me...

hope so

today went trekking with family

from henderson's way to queenstown ^^

whole family bought new shoes

from new balance==''

went IKEA after that, and ate hotdog.

check in on duh, he also wanted to eat hotdog

but too bad he isn't with us==''

went to grandma's house after that

ate dinner and nana promised that

if she don't come for badminton training next week

she will have to treat us dinner

nothing much today

gonna end here

cya~

Buh byes~

2010-01-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

its like woah??

today lets just say things

didnt went out smoothly

everything was like crap==''

firstly i notice some ppl is ignoring

me and F.Y.I it is super

obvious it started after

i think CME and i also

dun feel like caring just a bit

lonely==''... nah no bigg

also dunno wat she is angry

about=='' so wat i practically did

was to ignore her too ended

it to be fun but it is^^

entertaining myself throughout

the whole day=='' like cause

elvina and li ching is not in school

next time shall follow them

3people pon school together==''

so i was following aikee than saw

karen and gladys than

maybelle [1mama] jia wen[2 mama]

thanks all of you for your

charming accompany!!!!

chiong home and back to school for CCA

last day for abselling course for lvl2

not much today...last week have more

things to learn==''...

elvina came for CCA but not school==''

so we started doing other stuff^^

flying paper planes from 4floor down

some got stuck on the 2 floor's bridge

so used the ball to push it down than....

GUESS WAT????!!

the ball was stuck up there too==''

haha so end up we used the ropes ^^

later got another stuck on the tree==''

i threw the ball and the ball was stuck again

hah like lol=='' so najiy kick and kick

tree was shaking vigorously and the ball

fell but the plane is still up there==''

forget the plane pretend nothing happen^^

if you know someone call guo an

and he ask you if you wana know wat is C.M.S

say no!!!! you'll regret if yes is your answer==''

but i didnt regret.... haha not much just

a bit disgusting==''

throwing the ball around and guiming

threw it and that made my contact lens

move upwards was super pain but

at least it didnt fly out....

so the rest of the day i keep calling him dog

haha

in the lrt going back gui ming alighting at

phoenix station so i was like

'dog fuck off laa.. go away..shoo shoo!'

and he went away cause he can only

alight at that stop==''...haha...

going to watch movie soon

gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-21T20:36:00.003+08:00

pissed just being pissed

a maths tuition ended

for a while le==''

the teacher was teaching in

chinese=='' like still okay

at least i understand==''

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TMR GOT POA TEST!!!!

AND I HAVEN STUDY!!!!

like i care=='' no la at least

i gotta pass==''

wish everybody in 4n1

survive tmr's test==''

like lol==''...^^

going to the end of school

something just change

my mood==''

like forget it anyway things

just gets better in a worse

way[simplify=just worsen]

thanks for everything i will

remember and pay back

someday somehow==''...

anyway got our class-tee

chosen hopefully i finally

get one==''

was plucking duh's leg hair out

cause he is too hairy==''...^^

haha was super funny looking

at his expression==''

blah blah blah blah blah blah==''

nothing much==''

gotta end here with some pics

black and white

jealous??
he fell down first==''

2010-01-19T19:44:00.003+08:00

err...

duh was not feeling happy today

cause of somethings i dont wan to say

anyway its like people like chloe

and jingyi have been shooting me

verbally today==''

esp jingyi continuously for 2 days

while elvina is not in school as usual

now i think i am gonna chiong my

chinese to A1 due to some misunderstanding

and that became my targeted score==''

while my only day free would be on tues==''

sadded all filled up==''

so as i said duh wasnt happy

so i kept torturing him and 'force'

him to laugh....==''

made it successfully^^

not much today==''

*
i hope el can come back soon

or i will be super bored==''

posting one photo taken with sis

so gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-16T11:21:00.002+08:00

i was being super flirty==''

okay i am posting for yesterday

stuff==''

as usual went to school with duh

during school nothing much happen

but some people know who i am dating==''

like omg==''

other than that nothing else==''

i literally fly home to change my clothes

and pack some stuff for ODAC...

drank 3cups of water to prevent

starving and thirst==''

and flew back to school...

on the way suppose to meet el

BUT she didnt finish her poa

homework so she changed her mind

and told me she dont want to go==''

so i kept spamming smses

convincing her to go==''

like wat a waste of messages==''

but she just gotta take her abseiling

level 2 okay??

*
got there odac already started==''

so gotta 'lock' myself on the rope

and let two of my hands free==''

only like 5to6 girls manage it cause

the others i think no strength==''

later was tying of knots==''

have difficulty remembering all

of it...UGH!!! headache==''

so after odac meet duh at lrt

he was doing his homework==''

nvm went home in the same lrt

as aaron from 3n2=='' with gf...

so on with the journey==''

took bus home from lot

thing is aaron also took the same bus

so i spotted my da jie,inez later

and her senior==''

so it was like there are 4 couples

in the bus... like woah==''

erm.. duh sent me home and

went off. but i sms him like 5min

later that my mum is going out so i

invited him to my house...

someone was sleeping on my sofa

and hugging stitch while i was bathing

like so i came out and watch tv with him==''

was lying on his laps but my hair was

wet so sit upright again==''

after a while started flirting==''

dunno why i did that

anyway i was shocked==''

so gonna stop here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-14T16:48:00.003+08:00

could life be any easier??

like seriously that fucking

a maths teacher just cant stop

giving us homework and question

that she did not teach and expect

us to refer to our textbook

to do the homework...

like seriously

WAT'S HER FREAKING PROBLEM??

anyway she didnt come today

save the trouble to give her attitude==''

today overall was fine

but i just started silent treatment

with duh==''

nvm didnt really mean it==''

think gonna end here

cause i edited somethings and now

i am super bored==''

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-13T18:21:00.004+08:00

how it really feels

如果有一天我受伤了

你会来安慰我吗？

你会不会回到我的身边配我，

还是你会应此离开我

把我望了，

当做你从没有我这个人

出现在你的人生里？

如果是这样的话那我希望

你能立刻接续这一切...

impressive huh??

never thought that i would ever

use chinese in my blog==''

but that's wat i thought of during and

after duh came over to my house

yesterday...though i keep trying

to shoo him away==''

have been thinking about the past

not sure why but that's it..

i am gonna try to keep it in the

dark or throw it into the sea..

okay so school sucks today==''

like only for a maths the rest

were okay^^

so i will be going for the band concert

on 26 march and if jingyi and chloe

is going we might be wearing the

same style..o.O..==''

so i am going to add on my dreams

about something duh promised

me to become within 3months==''

but i think he would only make me feel

disappointed==''

so nothing much gonna end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-10T22:25:00.003+08:00

hrm.. today got religion meeting

around 3 to 5...

BUT!! it didnt went on smoothly

haha.. cause we did something else..

*
so went to lot at 12plus to eat lunch..

apparently me and my sis suppose

to meet there at 12 but end up

reaching around 12.17..==''

so made duh wait^^

went up to the food court and saw

darwin and his family members

so told duh==''

eh..

end up my mum wanted to meet

us at lot for lunch=='' so i gotta sent

duh away==''

but before that went to the library

for a while chatted there and he change

his mind for following me to tampines==''

so was a bit pissed like want than dont wan

[ai mai,ai mai like that=='']

and saw zuanlong there looking through

the books so i just walked away knowing

it will be a no just

because it is awkward==''

after meeting my mum for lunch

we waited for jiahao and jon to be

at lot cause we are suppose to go

together so from 1pm wait till 1.30

than they reach=='' first thing i did

was to strangle jiahao's neck==''

*
on the way there as usual jiahao

was joking and i was just trying

to tag along joking but he is still

a better joker==''

so we reach tamp at 3 and was late

for the meeting so we changed our

mind..so without letting our parents

know, we were just going to submit

our attendance and slip off to west coast

so i called duh to come to tamp and

sms when he reach paya lebar

got his sms so that was our cue to

slip off from the meeting^^

so went to the restroom and came out

guess wat, jiahao and jon was caught

for not being in the meeting..

so they were around the lift and some

obasan call them to go up. so..

jon said he is pri 6 so he dont needa

go for the meeting.. jiahao keep laughing

so me and my sis was caught later and they

made me lie =='' therefore i was like

,'erm. we just came down from the meeting

cause we got an appointment and i got to

bring my brothers and sisters along.'

with a straight face and a super polite

voice that i rarely use.. than some people

started laughing==''

so meet duh than went to west coast^^

and jiahao keep complaining why never

invite weicong out today..==''

reached west coast and climb half of

the pyramid..and moved on to the

other side.. played the elements for

a round and me and jiahao decided

to bury our slippers so glacier and jon

follwed later=='' while duh stayed out

cause he was wearing shoes==''

marked the place where we bury our

slippers and went off to the other side^^

played until around 6plus and went back

to find our slippers.. suprisingly it was still

there if not the four of us gotta go home

bare footed==''..^^

after west coast went to west mall..

on the way jiahao reminded me about

glacier's b'day...people that attended

like babe and beatrice would know==''

after that went home ending the last jokes

hope to meet them up again soon with

jovi cause they are the best jokers i know

other than babe so combined together

they will create havoc==''

so not gonna continue cause

I WANA SLEEP!!

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

today was tiring and irritated==''

but still had fun parts^^

after all, i enjoyed today

cause things that happen just made

me happy though it isn't much==''

was wearing contacts the whole day

and was joking around as usual...

was talking crap and trying to

insult leon that dragon today==''

but i must admit that weicong and

leon were quite smart and creative

during chemistry lesson

they came out with this::

potassium

sodium

calcium

magnesium

aluminium

zinc

iron

lead

[hydrogen]

copper

silver

gold

so it becomes

pat

siew

can

make

zebra

let

hippo

cum

shot

gorilla

haha a bit vulgar but at least it is

easy to remember ^^

our teacher ms elfie didnt want to

know wat it means... good for her^^

during e maths lesson in the library

seriously its more like a pinic than

a lesson more ever its in the library==''

teacher, mr tan was insulting leon

and keep calling him long ==''

and the rest of the boys in that class

become lawrance out of the blue

i also not sure why==''

at least we all had a good laugh^^

after school el came and meet me with

duh thats a bit late...

plus i ignore him through the whole

ride back to my house==''

its fun though.... nvm later he might

think that i am really that promiscuous

one==''

so he sent me home i changed to my odac

shirt and he accompany me to teck whye

and went off==''

so went to school with el with some ppl

named kenneth that keep spam calling

me==''

reached and was like

finally got odac!!!

so like super happy

and got abselling and rock climbing

so during abselling cause i need to

set up some things so gui ming keep

threatening me about something i do

not want to mention==''

so i finally made it up the fourth lane

in school with el like finally and yay

but my hands are hurting now==''

but its worth it^^

later gotta plan for pulau ubin camp

so was planning halfway than weijun

anyhow drag duh into it==''

he was like wat shall we do for the

light games,

we shall shave duh's head,

than punch his arms and legs

pinch his nipples,

torture him

and a lot others that i became quite

pissed and literally shouted at him

called duh when i end my cca think he

was sleeping and i woke him up==''

sorry...

but went home alone as usual and almost

overslept and i have to spent another few

mins to get my ass back home... cause i

am currently super tired==''

[separation for the better]

in the middle of nowhere

there are two small boats

floating in the middle of the ocean

emerging together

but after a heavy downpour

they were separated

drifting away from each other

the separation hurts

but being together hurts more

each scar that has being mended

would be thorn apart

all the wounds would be cut deeper

so why not separate before

it starts to hurt them and

the boats around them?

so separation was the only way

but only fear and regret awaits them...

i just thought of it and tadaa==''

like i also dunno why

but i just had the feeling==''

so gotta end here

cya~

buh byes~

2010-01-05T21:30:00.006+08:00

everything is like a circle you lose and gain things but some of it you just cant get it back

******************************************

04.01.2010

so first day of school i was

joking around and hurt chloe

CHLOE I AM REAL SORRY!!

i didnt did it on purpose==''

anyway the jokes were pretty

funny^^

jia wen came into class so i was

standing beside her and liching

said that we have a similar hair

style.. so jia wen said we got it

from bintan[was having my odac

camp and some ava members

tagged along] and i stared at her

later said>nice rite?? in bintan

they use parang to cut==''..haha

so jia wen stared at me and than

the whole group laughed ^^

so throughout the whole day,

other than mother tounge that

sucks the rest was okay^^

05.11.2010

met duh in the morning as usual

he was late==''so i came out of the

lrt and waited for him=='' like i lost

my sit and that day my bag was quite

heavy cause there was a maths and

poa=='' darn it==''

reach school early so went to do my

english homework after 10min chloe

than later some sucker came in and

it became to become super noisy

so chloe and me were blasting musics

in our ear to quit hearing the suckers

and fuckers talk... cant get it , cant

they just shut the f up and enjoy the

morning silence??

so as usual chinese sucks was caught

for not paying attention but who

cares??..==''..

after school saw things that i didnt want

to see so i shall skip that and since el is

not in school, i went back myself.. rest

of the day is just plain bored

[a little piece of wat i am thinking]

i do not know what are you thinking

so do you

things that i saw that day didnt made

me happy. it just spoils my mood.

but if i just pretend, i didnt see it,

i might not bother to know though

it stills lies as a mystery, but what

can i do? i could only accept the fact

of it.

so i will just leave it as it is and

pretend nothing has happen and feign

ignorance..

ya so gotta end here^^

cya~

buh byes~